Friday, October 10, 2014

TGIF Udate

Good Morning,

I'm just popping in here to let you guys know that I'm feeling a lot better today. I talked to my manager regarding my feelings towards cooking and she said she could have me cook 3 days a week and something else 2 days a week for now. I was so relieved to hear that.

Anyhoot, yesterday wasn't a very good day of eating so today I will get back on track. We're going to the Zoo so I will have to see what's healthy for lunch there=)

ok, have a great Friday.

Thursday, October 09, 2014

Its Just a Job


For the past week I have been experiencing overwhelming anxiety. Tuesday I almost broke down at work after lunch but I talked myself though it. Yesterday I had this overwhelming feeling that I just didn't want to be there. I feel like my skin is crawling and my thoughts are racing. I'm paranoid about stupid things. I HATE feeling like this. By noon on Tuesday I had already taken the recommended amount of Valium prescribed by my doctor, and by 2pm I was taking another 6pm another 2. All it did was calm my mind just a little but not enough for my body to calm down. I felt and still feel very tense.

 I keep thinking that I don't want to cook anymore and its my dominant thought right now. Its all I think about ( I cook in a deli). I don't understand why though? I didn't mind it at first then all of a sudden my skins crawling. Its so strange.
Bottom line - I'm at a lost of what to do?

I spoke to my manager and told her that I'm feeling burnt out on cooking and its causing my anxiety to come back. I also said that I would like to be doing something else by my next 1 year evaluation. Well, at the time I felt ok with cooking up until June of next year which is my evaluation, but now I don't. Sigh, guess I will have to talk to her again and just say by January I would like to be doing something else. At least there will be a light at the end of this crazy tunnel.

I take Wellbutrin and had for over a year now. It's been working great for my depression and at first it upset my anxiety then things mellowed out. I also take Valium ( 3mgs) every day for my anxiety. This combination of medication has worked very well... up until about 10 days ago.  Then all these crazy symptoms started erupting. I've thought about it and there three things that could be going on here. First, I'm no longer running to food when I feel stressed out. Secondly, I started taking a multivitamin about 2 weeks ago but its just a plain multi no extra energy or anything so why would it interact with my meds? And finally, maybe I just need to bump up my wellbutrin dosage?

I have an appointment with my doctor next Thursday, I'm looking forward to speaking with him.

Tuesday, October 07, 2014

Tuesday Weigh In and Update


Im up getting ready for work and feeling pretty tired. Today is day 4 of 6 days straight. I really hate working that many days in a row. And whats so sad is I can't really say anything to boss lady about it because then I'm considered a complainer.

I saw a side of the boss lady yesterday I didn't particularly like too much. She got mad because a girl called out and didn't believe that she was sick. She starting saying that she's come to work throwing up before with a fever. As the day went on she got more upset, even reading text messages that the sick girl was sending to other co-workers. She said she was going to cut her hours this upcoming week. Honestly there has been drama all week in the deli. Im just sick of being there and hearing it.

So today was my weigh in day and I lost .6 of a pound. I'm trying to stay positive with that #. I was on my monthly this week, which will mess up a weigh in. I know that... but dang I was hoping to see a bigger loss. sigh, Oh well...maybe next week.

I went back and looked at my exercise log this week and I got in 4 days of workouts, thats not too bad. I also did very good with my eating. This week was a good week so I didn't do anything wrong.

Anyhoot, just checking in. Today is suppose to be my free day, I think I will just cut it back to a meal this evening though...I want to get some weight off.

Have a great Tuesday. =)

August check-in

Morning, Are you having a good day? I hope you can say 'yes I am' cause I'm always having a good day when I'm not at work....