Saturday, March 09, 2013

Vent - 3/9 Bitchy Bosses

I wish I could find another job! Or perhaps have another boss! She's driving me nuts!

Yesterday all I did is ask her a simple question about the schedule and she flies off the handle at me, wouldn't let me get a word in AND she mis-understood the question. ( She's from Mexico but has been in the USA for 16 yrs so speaks pretty good English but still gets confused sometimes) She went off on me for no reason. I don't like to being talked to too like that. Its a awful feeling.
My plan is too make a fresh resume and see if I can get into a doctors office atmosphere again. Or I could ask to be moved to another department?

I don't know? My husband is getting laid off at the end of the month so I feel like I'm kinda stuck.

The company I work for is known for telling people "we don't need you anymore so you can leave "without any notice.


Anyhoot, Im not counting calories or even watching what I eat. I worked out two days this week so far...i know, im asking for trouble. I just feel as if im being pulled in twelve different directions everyday and food is my only comfort.  I do try...I've been eating 5-300 calorie meals but no working out. Then my snack at night pretty much erases all my efforts during the day.

My mind isn't focused right now, all I think about is bills and how we're going to pay them :(

Monday, March 04, 2013

Work Pics 3/4/2013

what I didn't eat today

YUP, thats right. This morning was donut duty and these were freshly made @5am this morning. 


Signature cake I made Sunday 


Sunday, March 03, 2013

SET BACKS SUCKS

My sister came over yesterday and we ordered pizza. At first I was like "no, I can't have pizza - its hard for me to stop at just a few pieces." And I told her this and she looked at me like I had bats flying out of my ears.
Then after we couldn't make our minds up about what we were getting for supper we kinda just said the hell with it and ordered pizza. I had four slices and put the rest in the fridge. My calories were right at 1900 - good, acceptable. But later on - while watching Breaking Dawn part 2 I went in the kitchen and ate the last two slices.

UGH- And I didn't even really want pizza to begin with?

My husbands birthday is tomorrow and he wants icecream cake...sigh, thats going to be hard to pass up.

The past couple of days have been like this. I've been giving in to temptation too much and going over my calories. Even a few hundred calories a day hurts in the long run.

Can you tell I'm not in the best mood this morning :(

I keep thinking about what my therapist said to me. "Amy, were going to figure this out because food is huge part of your world when it shouldn't be. Food is what we use for fuel, its a natural instinct to eat when your hungry. But its not here for us to obsess over and to use in an abusive way."

ok...gotta get ready for work. I just needed to vent a little. Thanks for those who read :)

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