Saturday, October 13, 2012

Day #3 TGIF

Its my Friday and I can't wait to be off for two days, HELL YEAH! Saturday will be spent at Six Flags over Ga with my family. I miss my babies so much :( we got season passes for the rest of this year and all of next year for a reasonable price. So next summer the kids will become quite familiar with all the rides at SF. LOL.

Yesterday was my third day wearing my fitbit at work and for some reason my calories burned aren't linking with MFP? The fitbit site is telling me I still have calories left to eat but MFP is showing an adjustment of 0? ((Huh? etsgueeze me? Baking powder?)) sigh, Im just about ready to give up on THE FITBIT FOREVER.

aneeways....

I made an appointment with my therapist for Monday afternoon...I'm sure she will see me weekly until I can get a handle on this over eating. I kinda over ate last night about 300 calories. Honestly, I wish I could come off the Zoloft because its making me just not give a damn anymore. Im in lala land most of the time. Its true that its kinda like a happy pill - I don't get emotionally affected by things anymore, every situation just rolls off my shoulder.

On my last doctors appointment I asked about slowly weaning myself off of zoloft and he was against it because of my recent anxiety. And the way he explained it did make sense - in the end, im still on it and going back to therapy.

ok, time to get ready for work.

No workout today, yesterday I did a short upper body workout and today I will do something after work.

Have a great Saturday :)

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Day #1 Rock Bottom

I got my new fitbit yesterday...i've got my food for part of the day logged.  I've also decided to go back to my therapist, I left her a message for an appointment.

Day #1 - Starting over

" When you've hit rock bottom, the only way to go is up"


Later in the day

Its now 7:13pm and I just had my last snack of the day. No workout because my foot is killing me ( plantar fiscitis ) . I did however end the day at under my goal of 2000. 1880 was my total. Accourding to my fitbit I still  have about 600 calories left...so im doing great!

Im going to set my alarm clock for 5am and try and get a workout in before work tomorrow.


Wednesday, October 10, 2012

A New High

The scales read 202.8 this morning. I'm officially out of the 190's . Thats 37lbs that I've gained.

 Im still in shock...I don't have much to say right now.

I won't give up. I can't. This battle will go on until I can find what makes me happy.

I'm longer trying to lose weight - I'm just trying to stop gaining :/

Monday, October 08, 2012

What Happened To Me?

I mean seriously?  LOOK at this pic of me from yesterday. We took the kids to six flags over Ga and had a blast but WOW, I saw this picture and my heart sank. My cheeks are so full.  I can't believe I've allowed myself to get this chubby again?

sigh

The bakery is killing me. Literally!! I've got to learn how to deal with my emotions besides eating them. This can't go on any longer...

Today I decided to not eat anything at the bakery and I didn't. My stomach was growling and I was baking croissants. I didn't bring my lunch but I did buy me a sub at subway that was low calorie and low fat with lots of veggies piled on top.

It was a good day. Im proud of myself :D
 I plan on eating some pulled chicken bbq for supper with some baked fries and a side salad. I got in a thirty minute walk yestereday after work and today I will do it again. I just don't have the energy right now to pick up the weights, maybe tomorrow.

Have a great day.






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