Monday, February 06, 2012

Ok, So...

Counting calories are out the door. I've attempted it enough to know that my journey with it is DONE! It leads to binges and just obsessive behaviors that I can do without.

I contacted a couple of long time fitness buddies today asking for their advice and the response was overwhelming. I felt SO MUCH better after reading there replies. So a HUGE Thank you to Helene and Trish, you guys are awesome!

We all agreed on a few things. No more eating at work for me. And lets say I do slip up and eat a donut or muffin or whatever, i will tell myself before eating it that I get ONE and thats it. No more. I will bring my meals with me  like I have been doing and try to snack on my stash at work, like protein bars and fruits/nuts. I'm also going to allow myself a 'treat' at the end of the day like a special k bar or bowl of cereal.

Another great suggestion that I got was an reward system. Each day that come home from work without snacking I get to cross out a # on my fridge. I will have the # 1-7 and the goal is to hit 7 every sunday, and if I slip up then I have to start over on 1 again.

The only reason I over eat and indulge so much is my anxiety. Its how I have always dealt with it and now that I'm on medication its a lot easier. My doctor increased my dose from 75mgs to 100 mg a few weeks back. I do feel great but still suffer a little. I have an appointment with him in march so maybe by then I will know if I need to increase the dose more. I'm also aware of my caffeine intake because I've noticed it will send my anxiety through the roof if I have more than a 6oz cup of coffee a day. I'm buying 1/2 and 1/2 coffee today to try and ween myself off of it. 

I'm off work today and i have been in my pj's and it feels GGGGGREAT!

I was debating on a workout but after looking at last weeks workouts I decided I would take another rest day and to give myself a break. I deserve a day of doing absolutely nothing ( well besides except laundry and some light cleaning).

so far today I have had a turkey sausage biscuit , protein bar and lunch was some broiled chicken over tortilla chips ( weighed of course) with some low cal Mexican cheese.

One day at a time ;-)

Sunday, February 05, 2012

Quick Update

Yesterday wasn't too bad. I ended the day at around 2000 calories, but my goal was around 1700. No workout because I fell asleep on the couch when I got home and woke up feeling very bad! Had b dy aches and a pounding headache, luckily some ibuprofen helped with that.

After work today I plan on getting in a long walk. I need one bad...

Here is a link to my hypnosis therapist. In this link he describes what my next steps will be with my weight loss. I think I have something buried deep inside of me that causes these binges/over eating and maybe he can help release it. I haven't seen him yet but he sounds really nice on the phone.

I've been trying to get in touch with my therapist but its been hard lately. I wanted to get in an appointment with her tomorrow...will see. Yesterday I had some real bad binge urges. I'm not sure if it had something to do with the calorie counting or maybe in my mind I was "dieting" again and like I said, something inside me isn't liking that word anymore. I seem to sabotage myself every time I start dieting again. That's why she suggested the hypnosis...

Have a great weekend.

August check-in

Morning, Are you having a good day? I hope you can say 'yes I am' cause I'm always having a good day when I'm not at work....