Saturday, July 16, 2011

Saturday Update

I plan on walking to work today, DH worked a 12hour shift last night and got off earlier this morning and since we only have the one car..he really needs it to take the kids to my moms and then he has to work tonight. I can find a ride home tonight or...walk. It really sucks having one vehicle.

Yesterday I got in an awesome workout. Cathe's Imax 2 intervals 1-4 + supreme 90 Chest & Back. Its was a nice sweatfest! Today I plan on walking to work and tomorrow I need to get in the next workout in the S90 series...not sure what yet?

Eating was great yesterday, i was too busy to even think about it :P this morning my weight is back down to 166 :D

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Why So Serious?

I woke up a loopy nut job today! 

First off, the assistant manager at work had a heart attack yesterday. She's going to be ok, thank goodness, but she's also going to be out for a whole month. My boss is scheduled to take her vacation on saturday, and she will be gone for a whole week. So that leaves three people to run a bakery for the next week :/ . Im off today and suppose to be off tomorrow, she kept hinting around for me to work tomorrow, which would put me at overtime. I told her I would let her know today...i mean come on! Thats crazy! This is suppose to be a part time job for me.

Second, I wake up this morning and my MIL is in the living room! She was only suppose to be here monday - Wednesday...i was PISSED to say the least. Since my husband didn't say a damn word to his dad about our crazy-busy day ( and quite possibly my only day off for the next week) i did! He's coming back to get her...i hate it but were busy here and can't watch her today.

Thirdly, all this stress from work/home has gotten to me with my bad eating habits. I did great all day yesterday except when I got home and was ready to go to bed. If i can just fight that short period of time then I could beat these bad habits. I had a bowl of cereal at around midnight last night...not good - it probably went straight to my ass....

Today will be a much needed ass kicking workout. I will come back on here later , after all the craziness has gone by - to report it :)

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

New Truck - Hopefully!

Good Morning

I have an appointment with my therapist today but I won't be able to make it because i have to be at work earlier then usual for a Wednesday :(. Im waiting for her to call me back and reschedule.  I tried to tell her yesterday that I wasn't going to make it but she insisted that I had time to get to work.

Anyways...we have our eye on an older truck. Its a Ford 1972 model...the price is right up our alley and my DH wants to fix it up. It runs and we're going tomorrow to test drive it. Hopefully DH will like it and we will have a second vehicle again. Its hard juggling our schedules with one vehicle :/ . AND hopefully it won't end up like the P T Cruiser that we invested in last year...that ran maybe 5months out of the year. That was a horrible experience.

Yesterday I took a rest day. My body was just too tired. Today Im going to do legs...

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Tuesday Update

Work is crazy at the moment. How in the hell did I become a full time employee?  anyways...I mentioned in an earlier post about the cake decorator finding another full time job - he told the boss about this yesterday and when I got to work it was the first thing the manger said to me. She asked if I wanted to work during the day time and train on cakes and close two nights a week? My immediate thought was "no" because I know i wont get any more money for doing a higher paying job - But then common sense kicks in and I think "I'm getting trained to become cake decorator, which can be a very good career for me - in the long run."  So I accepted the position. I will start training in two weeks.  And it does have more positives like being home during some of the week with my family :) , not having to pay a babysitter :) Its all good....

Anyways. A customer that was extremely buff told me something interesting about Equal - the blue sweetener, the sweetener that I use. It causes belly fat!!!!!!
I didn't know that and thats all I use? She said to use splenda or i plan on switching to that soon. Probably splenda. She also told me that if I wanted to lose belly fat to quit eating carbs after 2pm...thats something im willing to try in the future...but for now im enjoying not being on a diet and just getting to know my body. Its so great to be in-tuned with my body's natural hunger signals. I eat when im hungry and I love it. My pants are getting loose, my legs are leaning out and im NOT counting calories. Its all so fabulous ;-) Im actually considering returning my OA books since I haven't had any thought on opening them up and reading them...or perhaps I could hang onto them in case I go into a relapse or something.

Monday, July 11, 2011

Still Progressing

Yesterday was full of Anxiety
It started with me obsessing over what I was going to say to the store manager, then when I got to work and realized he was off that day i wanted to ask co-workers about it and I didn't because I didn't want to share what I said. Then I thought' Good grief Amy, you are making a big deal out of nothing'. The day pretty much sucked yesterday, just high anxiety all day long, feelings of guilt keep sweeping over me. Then my heart would pounding with racing thoughts, i guess that would be an anxiety attack or something. I just felt sad on and off all day. But miraculously  I didn't eat...i just continued to feel it. It was hard, specially with the two buggies full of sweets/bread that I had to throw away AND i was by myself from 2pm on up until closing with them.

My therapy appointment is Wednesday morning and I can't wait. I still  haven't had the chance to opened my OA books yet...ive been working to much and just simply hadn't had the time too...

Today I weighed 166. Thats a pretty good # considering the high sodium chili I had for supper yesterday. Here are my thoughts on it : I'm either losing fat because i quit stressing over my calories or im losing muscle.OR it could be that Im listening to my body and just eating when im hungry...who the hell knows? I honestly don't care anymore. Im not constantly thinking about food anymore...its progress...

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Fed Up at the Moment.

Wow...I feel so fed up this morning. Fed up with working all the time and not seeing my kids during their summer vacation, fed up with this constant battle with my fat kid inside -she's always wanting a cookie or a bite of cake at work-, fed up with my big fat mouth and how I can blurt things out, Sigh

I was at work yesterday and the store manager stops by the Bakery, he ask me to get something for a customer and while I was preparing that he asked how it was going. I said its a little crazy back here., which it is. Then I made a comment about a co-worker and how he's looking for another job and when he finds one its really going to be crazy here. -gesh, why did I open my big, fat mouth?  The manager acted like he had heard but then he stood there for a moment, i guess in thought and didn't say much except "keep on truckin' " and walked off. I was immediately disappointed in myself :( . Blah-

Maybe i will talk to him today (if hes working, it is Sunday) and tell him i didn't mean it? I'm thinking about it, if he's a good manager then he will appreciate my honesty.

As far as the fat kid inside goes...i kinda wish i could be transferred to another department at work, like maybe produce or meat. Something less tempting. But I know thats never going to happen...the bakery is too complicated and ive already learned a lot. I do like working there too - its fun most of the time. But it can test my willpower and there are days when i want to eat,eat and eat - but I haven't and won't allow myself to do that.

So yesterday was Supreme 90 Arms and Shoulders. Today is suppose to be Cardio challenge but I think since its going to a another 9hour work day I will take the day off. I'm thinking about it anyway...yesterday I said the same thing but ended up working out...will see.

I'm looking forward to my first Therapist appointment on Wednesday :)

August check-in

Morning, Are you having a good day? I hope you can say 'yes I am' cause I'm always having a good day when I'm not at work....