About two weeks ago I called and left a message with the only therapist within a 50mile radius of me, i wanted to try and get an appointment with her. Well, I totally forgot about it and went on with life, yesterday she calls me back. I was happy to see it was her calling me back and not a receptionist or nurse. It was the actual therapist. I liked that! She sounded extremely down to earth so I made an appointment with her for next week. My insurance cover it so thats pretty cool.
When I hung up with her I immediately thought "What in the hell am I doing? Am I going to a therapist now or doing OA?" I was looking at my husband and he said simply " why not do both?" (just love him, he makes things so simple, LOL)
So I guess im going to do both for now. Still no OA books, they should arrive tomorrow. I'm starting to think if maybe I jumped the gun on ordering these books. I'm starting to re-think my path here, or maybe its fear that has me wanting to turn and run back to counting calories? I feel less confident this morning about it. Here is my food yesterday
And everything is measured in portions:
cinnamon oatmeal w/ chopped walnuts & sweetner
1/2 can chicken with light mayo and dill relish on whole wheat bread ( chicken salad sandwich)
natural peanut butter (1tsp) on a slice of whole wheat bread, 1 pear
Large salad with egg and chicken, 1packet of honey mustard dressing, 6 whole wheat crackers, a red plum + peach
low carb wrap with some turkey taco meat and cheese, sf pudding cup
Actually when i look at it like this - it isn't that bad. around 1700 calories.
I guess what im feeling bummed about is my last meal, it was around 9:30 pm, after work :( , i feel so guilty when I eat that late. Gotta work on that :)
Im still stepping on the scale everyday - something I said i wouldn't do. This morning I weighed 168...not bad after all the eating I did around the holiday. I usually go up to 170+ when I gain water weight...