Wednesday, February 01, 2017

Hello Again, I'm Still Alive!!

Good Afternoon.

I can't believe my last post was in November of last year. Sorry for the lack of post.

Everything is going good in my life, at least that what I tell myself when I start to feel down. I'm still suffering from depression. It comes and goes, the new job is something I'm still adjusting too. I believe the Depression is coming from my weight though. But on the upside my anxiety is fine. The medicine I take has finely balance me out. Now I need to work on my depression...that means working on myself.

I went for my annual exam yesterday and talked to my OBGYN, she is so sweet and understanding, she listens and offers advice. I just love her. We talked for a while about my weight and I even teared up about how I feel at this point. she prescribed Belviq again and told me to just give it a try, it could be the jump start that I need. She was like a cheerleader lol. After I left there I went to a local walmart to check the price and YIKES, 260$ for one month, .....um no thank you :) So then I headed toward the office supply aisle and picked up a notebook, pen and calculator. Yep...it's time to go back to what I know works. counting calories.

So today is day one. I'm not going to come on here and weigh in every week, I won't obsess about a bad day that i've had. I won't beat myself up for not working out everyday like i did in the past. Instead I'm going to focus on everything positive that i'm achieving. I know what's coming because ive been on this journey before. It's hard and it's going to take a lot of patience, but I can do it. I'm tired of being sad and afraid to look myself in the mirror. It's time to face my demons head on. This will be the hardest thing in my life, but for the sake of myself, my kids and my husband I have to do it. I can't go on like this. Life is to short to be this unhappy.

Amy 2/1/2017

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

November Update

Good Morning,

I can't believe how quickly this year is going by? Once Halloween starts it's all about Thanksgiving and Christmas.

We had a good thanksgiving, I was fortunate enough to come home after work and find a kitchen full of food that my amazing husband cooked, and it was so good. It was nice spending some time with the kids for a little while.

My job is going ... well, good I guess. It's getting less painful to get up at 3:45 and work a 11.5 hour shift 5 days a week. (yes we are still working mandatory overtime) We all got great news yesterday (insert a sarcastic grin here) Now they want us to work 6 days a week. Yep, today is my only day off this week...isn't that just wonderful? ( sigh )

But its what I left my other job for and the money is great. But dang...6 days of 11.5 hour days can play a roll on your body. Lets just say Ibuprofen is my best friend right now. The overtime shouldn't last much longer, 3 weeks tops. Im praying anyway.

So since today is my only day off I got a heck of a lot to do this morning before I can relax this afternoon. Christmas shopping, grocery shopping and a little bit of house chores. My kids have been helping us with that, bless their little hearts.

Well just for the heck of it I decided to check my weigh this morning, Im up 3 lbs from my last weigh in from October. I'm sure all the working (aka stress)  and holiday treats are the culprit. I know I wasn't gonna lose anyway... but after this maddening work schedule is over I plan on doing some serious prioritizing in my life. My health will be one of my main focuses come the new year.

Wednesday, November 09, 2016

Update on Yesterday's Post

Morning,

Im feeling much better this morning. My monthly started yesterday so that explains a lot. I can't wait to clock out at 5:30 this afternoon. Just to sleep in tomorrow sounds heavenly.

ok, later.

Tuesday, November 08, 2016

A New Job Vent

Morning,

It's 4:40 in the morning and im about ten minutes away from heading out the door to my new job. Well it's not NEW new...I've been there since September 3rd, but I'm still new to it. I haven't really adjusted yet to the schedule and drive. But the money is good.

I'm tired. I'm so tired that it's starting to effect my emotions. I literally feel like crying right now and I don't know why....guess cause im tired and kinda stuck.

When I started this job it was for 3 days a week and 12 hour shifts. I accepted that... but then the holidays started and that 3 days a week has turned into 5 days a week. Those extra two days are 10 hour shifts... And two days off just isn't enough. I'm not the type of person to miss work so everyday it's a struggle. I hear there are still 6 more weeks of this crap.

I'm preparing my mind to just go in, shut up and do it! But I wish someone would tell my body that.

I can't wait to clock out tomorrow, I will be off Thursday and Friday.
sigh...

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

Changes Are Good

Good Morning,

It's Tuesday, September 13. I'm just sitting in my pj's relaxing for now.

The past few weeks have been busy - very busy, with lots of changes. But im sure they're for the best.

First let me start by saying I am no longer following WWer's...but I am however just watching what I eat, mainly my portions and I'm still losing weight ( in small increments lol).
And secondly I GOT A NEW JOB!! Yep, after working in a grocery store since 2011 I finally got in at my husbands work and now ride with him to work. I work 3 twelve hour shifts and then I'm done. I have four days to do whatever I need to do..I LOVE IT. My orientation was last week and this week was my first week, it's different then the slow pace at the grocery store but the time seems to fly by. I don't have to wear a uniform and it's a considerable pay increase. This job means a better life for our family.

so ... that's what I've been up too the past few weeks. I will check in soon. Have a great week :-) and thanks for reading.

Saturday, August 27, 2016

Good morning!!!

It's early on a Saturday morning. I'm up of course for work...oh how I wish I could go back to bed, jason is home today and I want to cuddle with him. But anyways.

So I have some bittersweet news. You guys know that I have been working at my job for almost 6 years now. Well, I put in my two week notice yesterday because I finally got a job at my husbands work. YES!!! They are hiring a large group of people and I jumped at the chance. I'ts a considerable raise in money and I only work Saturday, Sunday & Monday. So in other words I'm off Tuesday through Friday. That's what I like about it. I will be working the same hours as my husband so I just couldn't pass that up. I start next weekend.

I'm gonna miss my family back at the grocery store, I mean...I have worked with them for so long and have built up friendships from quite a few of people. It's going to be hard my last couple of days. I was teary eyed all day Wednesday after I knew I had the job. I told my store manage, he was understanding. I told my supervisor yesterday, she was shocked and couldn't look at me at first because she said she was going to cry.

But in my heart, I know I've made the right decision.

ok..so onto another subject. Weight Watchers.

My last weigh in sucked! It was basically water weight. I didn't eat that bad all week...I just splurged a couple of days before my weigh in with seafood. I know my body all to well and I knew I would be up. Just not THAT much, ouch!

anyways, just an update.
later gators...


Saturday, August 20, 2016

quick update

morning,

I have a few minutes before work this morning to check in.

So far this week I've been doing pretty good. Eating healthy has it's good days along with its bad. I Did have some slip ups but they don't bother me anymore, I just keep on going. I know I will lose something on Wednesday, just not sure if it will be close to a 2 lbs again.

I'm going to check into getting a membership at a gym that has water aerobics, I need something low impact. I may start next week after my weigh in on Tuesday.

Alright, well...have a great weekend.